Is that what i really wanted?
i'm confuse wif my feelings...i dunno wat i really want... i felt da distance between me & him has gone really far... i want to make it betta but i dunno how 2... crying doesnt help & so do bringing up da problem... is he really da one 4 me? do i really love him? did he eva liked me? who is there 2 answer all these questions 4 me? being to honest might not be da right way 2... sumtimes it hurts... & i usually cover da wound & let da pain past itself...when i m alone, i really thought of a lot of things...listening 2 da music da use 2 play in my life, my tears rolled down..... but no one has eva really been there 4 me... who i mentioned use 2 share my feelings wif me has all gone.... & i wud not want 2 bother ppl's life... boon pink, alex, chun kee..... they were always been there 4 me when i m sad... but now.......i jz wish things cud get betta... i tried being da best of all... i've tried... i really did....................... plz find sum1 who really understand me.......... blogging here is jz 2 releasing my stress......... & i hope it really helped....dear, things became different.... can't u feel it? i dun wanna lose u & i do hope u cud save tis relationship of us 2gether wif me... i dun wanna be confused wif my feelings but i jz cant help it!! i dun wanna cry but u nvr been there 4 me when i weep... i jz wanna hv a happy life wif u... can't we go thru tis 2gether? i dun wanna let go & i'll nvr gv up.... dear, do u hear me.....???omg.... i getting crazy... as if i m talking 2 da wall....wateva............................................................................
wat had i done??
wat did i do wrong???did i do sumthing wrong? izzit my fault by worrying bout him?? shud i or not?wats da prob wif my attitude? was it bad?? i wonder...............................who is there 2 listen 2 me now?? i hv been such an idiot!! i've been worrying things dat has nth 2 do wif me.... & get scolding instead... spoiling everyones' mood & made everyone unhappy...i dun wanna care bout anything now... hving a bad mood!! haiz... enuf of all these!!! enuf of all these tears... all da tears dat nobody cud see... enuf of me hiding in a side... crying silently...plz........................................... i jz wan a happy relationship!!in da world... nobody willing 2 sacrfice 4 me anymore?? there nvr been any1 ayway...dats all.... no mood 2 type~
SPM result coming out soooooon.....
omg!! SPM result is coming out in 2days time...*hopefully i cud get 5 credits!!! i wanna enter diploma... PLZ!!!!!!!!phew........................... is been a long time i blog here... *my pc was a bit da "sot sot" edi... lolz^^ i was suppose 2 stop workin at Celia Loe at da end of Feb bt i decide 2 stay instead.. cz of wat??? cz of MONEY!!!!!!! lolz.. i muz save sum pocket money 4 myself when i m goin 2 college~ & i might b renting a house there wif a group of frenz... [well~ it depends...]college is starting at May... my darling might not b goin 2 da same college as me... is dat a gd thing? or a bad thing?? well.. i understand his meaning dat he dun wanna b da same college as me... & i m not worrying bout him knowing other gals or wat.. i m worrying dat me wud not hv much time 2 spend 2gether =( anyway, at least i m appreciating da time we spend 2gether now... if i really staying at wangsa maju, how often we will meet???? i really dunno... haiz...dun talk bout unhappy things... at least i feel happy wif him now... he cares bout me & does wat a bf shud do.. glad 2 hear dat he has found a job... hope he will b happy wif his new job~these few days, i felt dat he is being so sweet*... or izzit i notice it 2 late? lolz... being his lil princess is really my luck... am i consider as a lucky girl?? lolz... dear, thx sooo much!!!!b4 forgeting.... i m getting FAT!!! omg... muz go on diet...HAHAHAHAHA!!!all da best in SPM RESULT...................................love every1... muaxxxxxx*
