wat will my life be without him?

Felt like i was in heaven~

2day i suppose 2 take da bus 2 work... i was all ready & wanted 2 go down early [dun wanna miss da bus... lolz^^]... suddenly da phone rang, it was my DARLING!! he called 2 ask me if i wud wan him 2 send me 2 work~ well...... of cz i wan!! lolz^^ he was down there waiting 4 me when he reached here [i admit i was kinda slow~ lolz..] he sent me 2 work... oooo* so SwEEt... when i reached & he left, i miss him so much!!! lolz...

den there goes my day of workin.... haiz...
siew leng is off 2day & i m like so alone~ *sobz* [miss her? nah.........] wheneva i feel unhappy wif my job or wat, i jz think of my darling, den everything will b ok again...

around 9 sumthing, i c my darling waiting 2 me outside my shop [he is always early... lolz] i finished my work & he sent me home...
well~ i was kinda tired in da car actually [i noe i was acting strong & didnt wanna admit i m tired...lolz^^] but i still wanna c him driving [dunno why leh...lolz] den i m satisfied~ he sent me back 2 my hse... [oops*!! 4gotten 2 gv him a gd bye kiss! lolz]

b4 i go home, a hug frm him really stays in my mind till now~
he hugged me tightly in his arm & i really did not wanna let go mine 2...
dear, i love u.... u love me 2? [i hope u really do....]

wat my life gonna b without him? i really wonder.....
i wont say i'll b upset till i go crazy [honestly....] but i hate da taste of it being leaving alone... so i kept on askin him 2 dun leave me... m i 2 stupid 4 askin all these nonsence?
reviewing da past i went thru, all my relationships was passing thru all these sweet time 2.... but in d end~ it still did not last, why??? i've been heartbroken so many times, will tis b da last time i m goin 2 b heartbroken? uncountable scars left in my heart cant b rub away 4eva & wat i can do is try 2 hide it... i always asked myself, m i 2 greedy? all i wanted was a simple life... sum1 there 2 care & love me but not 2 cheat on me!!! m i askin 2 much???!! but now i feel i m lucky enuf 2 hv him.... i might not b perfect but i'll still try my best 2 b a gud gf... i'll love him wif all my heart & nvr regret...
pls let b a lasting relationship tis time, i really dun wanna lose him!! i lost 2 many my loved ones b4 last time, da feeling hurts!!! i dun wanna taste it again!! *sobz* i promise i'll do my best.... i m glad he is there 4 me now, i do hope my post in da future wont b mentioning another guys~ haiz........
now, i miss him so much but he is outside wif his fren... i've been trying 2 b understanding, i wonder if i really did... lolz... but i nvr forced myself, mayb loving sum1 will really change me... lolz... how come i nvr been so understanding huh? last time, i wasnt lidat... why huh?? [i dunno either....] but is a gd thing i finally changed, not da inmature lil girl anymore [i noe i dun consider as a mature girl but at least i noe i grown!! lolz^^] phew~ i actually crapped so much???!!! lolz... but i dun think any1 enjoy reading it cz no1 really goes 2 my blog... i dun really blog 4 any1 2 c, i m jz expressing my feelings.. my blog is not fancy or wif pic... jz simple post bout my life... i use 2 write diary but since now i m facing da pc more dan my books, i mights well jz post wateva i feel...lolz...
haiz.............. tired~ but miss him 2... wonder he misses me anot~ lolz^^

enuf 4 2day & HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! *muaxx*