Happy Chinese New Year...

at last i m back home... after a few days of celebrating CNY, i m back home on9!! lolz

Chinese New Year Eve~
i was supposed 2 b goin 2 work on new year eve...
early da morning, i woke up.. i felt so dizzy & i had a really bad headache. i thought dat it will b ok after a while so i went 2 hv my bath... after taking a refreshing bath, i head off 2 work.
he came 2 fetch me 2 work.. in da car, i felt really sick... so he took me 2 c da doctor instead... we went 2 da clinic at tmn desa... da minute i stepped into da clinic.. i was like "wow!!" so many ppl o!! CNY so many ppl sick meh?? lolz... well.. i waited 4 quite a long time & my darling waited wif me 2... he was a great accompany... he was at my side when i felt so suffering... he comforted me & nvr complaint dat he was tired [mayb he is... but he nvr said so... "but no matter wat, i love u dear..." ] after an hour... finally it was my turn... i went 2 c da doctor & receive a lot advice which i dun like!! lolz... so many kind of food cant eat!!! its CNY & i actually hv 2 stop myself frm simply eating food.... =(
after seeing da doctor, he sent me home... right till my hse door!!!!! lolz... 1st time~ [damm... my dad missed da chance seeing him!! lolz...]
me & my family headed back 2 Mentakad around 2pm & reached at 5pm..
had dinner wif my grandparents... den i went 2 sleep... [cz i m sick!!!!!!! lolz]

1st day of CNY~
woke up in da morning & wore my new blouse!! lolz...
went 2 my aunts' hse and sure............. went 2 get ANGPAU!!!!! lolz..
sms wif my darling lor.......................... & there is my day....lolz...

2nd day of CNY~
early da morning.... back 2 GEMAS!!! lolz... always like 2 go back during CNY!!! FUN!! lolz.... tis year, uncle Geon Hock is back frm CANADA 4 CNY... [wish i cud go back wif him... lolz~ wanted 2 go canada for a long time^^] we had a lot of fun when v were in Gemas... couz r all there & we get money frm uncle Yoon Lai!!! lolz... he is da "choi san yeh"...$$$$$ lolz... chatted a lot wif Julie & Jc... [bout~ lol.....sum1 lar....^^]

3rd day of CNY~
i woke up & there was so breakfast!!! da whole day, i watch tv lar... gamble lar... den eat lar....
haiyoh!!! so boring wei..... in da afternoon, i went 2 took a nap again...lolz^^
when i woke up, adults r off 2 gemas town 4 dinner & da "small kids" [dat includes every1 which is unmarried k? lolz^^] stayed at home... d maid cook 4 us & we all still feel hungry...lolz..
around 10pm, da adults r back ... my parents packed their things into da car & is time 2 go back 2 KL!!!
in da car, patchy & coco slept wif me... we reached home around 1am...
i went 2 bed after i came back cz i nid 2 work... lolz...

these few days... i miss him so much... u noe who u r...
everytime i thought of him... no matter wat m i doin, he appeears in my mind...
y i love him??? i dunno y.... wats da reason??? all i noe is i love him.... love him... love him!!!!!
cant control my feelings... i sound so stupid rite???? =(
i noe i m not gd enuf but wat can i do????? is this da real me???? did i really changed or i hv been pretending all along???
so confused~ love him but still think i m not gd enuf 4 him... wat m i thinkin!!!?????
i dunno wat is da real me... sumtimes i feel is ok 2 b understanding but once a while i lose control & my bad attitude will come up 2 me again!!!! omg...... wat chud i do??? i m scared he cant stand me... cz i m so affraid i'll lose him...
mayb i was pampered 2 much by my ex & now i m such a baby!! dear, will u still love me???
no matter wat.... i still love him... jz like he said~ i love him more dan da water in da ocean...
*muax*

is my blog boring? lolz.... but is jz sumthing i wanna type lar...
cz i m so boring....lolz...
wish every1 HAPPY CNY yea!!! muackz................................